i hate it

I wish I could erase it but I can't though
And not for lack of trying
I'd be lying if I said that I could let go
You already know
Everything I'm feeling 'cause you told me not to worry about a month ago
We're just friends, stop being so irrational
Fast-forward to my fears becoming factual
And your ghost likes to visit with me nightly
To tell me how every day was something fictional and

I see you in every single person that I meet and I'm sorry
But the thought of you with him is enough to leave me weak
And I hate it
You don't know how much I hate it
You don't know how much I hate it

And I'm so past gone
I packed my bags and just became another passenger
Tryna act strong
It's tit-for-tat and I ain't perfect but I'm searching for some purpose
They marching in they lines inside the circus
But this burden might be worth it
If I carry it with everything I've got
So tandem with the shots
Cold handed with these rocks that I kick back
No, no, no, don't hit me with no props I don't get that
It's low-key like baritones
Gimme lil' love and a quarter count of that serotonin
Living for the moment
I navigate through the pheromones
I'm just tryna bare with 'em

Sleepless nights I'm cold looking in myself (and it's no use tryna get used to)
Haunted by your ghost, I see nothing else (the weight of living without you)
You're like a demon in disguise have to run away (and that's something that I can't undo)
I'm tryna heal, move on
Gotta let you go
But all I know is

I see you in every single person that I meet and I'm sorry
But the thought of you with him is enough to leave me weak
And I hate it
You don't know how much I hate it
You don't know how much I hate it
You don't know how much I hate it
You don't know how much I hate it