Stranger

Old man was it worth it?
Was it all that it seemed
Did you ever find the carcass of your dreams?
Oh you must know I was young
The fear I had not yet outrun
Though I was never meant to hurt you but I do
I do

It's got a hold of me and it keeps coming away
And you're always looking at me from afar
I can't change
I'm a stranger to my nature
Would you love me anyway
If my head don't talk right
Don't let me down old man
Through the swollen eyes of your ritalin
It's like a strangers standing over me
Some kind of faceless beast that watches as I sleep

Now there's a hard lump in my throat
And all the best times that you've ever known
Are all just fading off the back of my sanity
Oh please
I made you weep
It's got a hold of me and it keeps coming away
But you're always looking at me from afar

I can't change
I'm a stranger to my nature
Would you love me anyway
If my head don't talk right
Don't let me down, old man
I wanted rest
I left the seeds of a memory
And I wondered if I've come too far