Joker

Give me the beat and a mic
Give me the freedom to write
Give me the vision to see my demons
And beat 'em at night
Give me the pen and the pad
Give me a couple of stans
Gave you a percentage
But I'm taking home all of the bag
Give me definitive and unlimited
Amounts of people loving me and
Call upon everybody who came before
And tell them to come
And inject me with
Whatever they're smoking man

I'm sick!
But I think you know that already
You call me evil
But how would you know it unless you live it already
You think you’re better right?
Because nobody's seen what you’ve done in the dark
But if I put your life in this light
you would crumble and fight to survive
Or die but bitch I fucking knew that already

I ain't special
But I specialize in making you feel especially stupid for judging a human
While you sit at home and whole world judge
Can’t watch what you doing or follow
And hate all your movements I ain't complaining
But I know the people who do it are sicker than me
And I'm sick enough I might just lose it

Ya
You think know me 'cuz you double tap on picture
I hate the fact that you judge me it’s driving me crazy
So when it’s to deep I say fuck it and drown in some liquor
I write these verses in blood I got chapters for days
'Cuz my heart is my biblical scripture and
I’m not a prophet but I can predict that you’ll never catch happiness
Till you're the pitcher
So please continue to laugh if I’m a clown your a circus act
When I rap it’s with a surgeons mask

'Cuz I place every syllable in a deliverable fashion
From first to last, then cut back with a message
That’s hidden in melody making them think
And ask if I was the one on the table pushing giving birth to rap
Maybe it was me
Maybe you like all my music but don’t really actually love me
Maybe you just want a picture
Maybe you just want to see me 'cuz you need some money
Maybe you think that I’m happy
Maybe you think in reality liking my post is repairing a hole
When it’s actually shaking and cutting the soul right out of me out

I think I’m sick
I feel a rush of emotion whenever I post up a pic
I got problem
I’m in the studio rapping while this girl is sucking my dick
She cut a whole in my heart now I fill it
With women who love me
'Cuz they think I’m rich and if I be honest I just told a bitch
That I care but I really do not give a shit
So what’s your excuse?
What helps you sleep?

You leave a negative comment not knowing what you sew you will reap
I bet you smile when you post thinking you're hurting me
But you see the way the brain works you become what you speak
I need peace
But y’all can’t offer that
I held my ground, I didn’t sell my soul
I said fuck the fame y’all can’t take that offer back
Fuck a shelf you can't take me off the rack
All the fame is not worth a heart attack
You're insane, you're in pain, I can tell by what you saying!

But
My bad
I forgot you were fragile
I forgot someone who doesn't even know me told you I'm an asshole
I forgot that I’m a villain
I forgot that I’ve always spread positivity but you think I didn't
I forgot that hatred stems from people who hate their own existence
I forgot I’m better off alone
I forgot I care about everyone's happiness but forget about my own
I forget I spend every waking second on my phone

Come join my circus
I’m recruiting
I’m taking everyone who passes judgement bitch that’s including
Everyone who thinks it’s so amusing
To put me down while I’m pursuing
The key board warriors that live online behind a screen that's just an illusion
Come come come join my circus
You fucking pricks
I’ll fuck you till you love me then pay you to do some tricks
I don’t need a doctor I need a bag of nails
And bricks to lay down on the floor
So if you fail to land a flip you can feel
What I felt when you tried to come sink my ship

Let me explain, you all help me financially gain
But I spend my money on mental health books
And read them just to control all my pain
I don’t wear clothes
But this bought chain and just like you this chain fake
I wear it to distract you from blatant sadness written on my fucking face
What'd you expect?
Did you think I was immune to what you were saying and didn’t see all of the disrespect?
Do you think I’m not human, have no feelings
Or maybe you think I’m fucking weak
And now I’m pleading, maybe you think I’m just too good and that I’m cheating?

Or maybe just maybe
You're blind and the hate inside your heart clouds
Your eyes and your mind and your ears
When I rhyme, even though we all know I’m one of the best of all time
Or maybe you're just a fucking bitch and I can't

Stop comparing me to people who are not in my league
Stop saying I don’t believe in God just because you can’t read
Stop making fake profiles so you can spam my feed
I'm not alone I know there's millions out there just like me