Affliction Of Faith

Lord... Heavenly God?
What is your reason for life
Torture our minds, scar our hearts,
What could justify this? Have faith.
Faith in what? A heaven, that I don't want?

Enrapture me, grant me the truth,
Bestow the gift I seek,
Nothingness!
And still I breathe another fear,
For my dispassion remains,
Nothingness!
To return to whence we came.

Creation, a mistake that only brings pain.
Affliction, this world in which we endure.
Answers, only death shall open the door.

Lord... No you count me among the damned
Because I reflect on the Uncreation of your plan?
Lord...