Not What I Wanted

Lately there's been a change in me
And I'm not sure if I can handle it
But every day has a different way
To tear me apart just a little bit
It seems I've been taking the long way down
To a place I really didn't want to go
I can't explain why you pick my brain
Just to tell me what I already know

It was a lonely mixed up tragedy
And it's something that I just can't seem to release

Not what I wanted
Not what I need
(Harmony for you and me
That's the way we want it to be)

Deep inside where I used to hide
There's a place in need of a miracle
And people claim that they'll stay the same
But they never have and they never will

When it's a lonely mixed up memory
And it leaves me here with nothing more to believe

Not what I wanted
Not what I need
(Harmony for you and me
That's the way we want it to be)

You can't deny the truth wore thin
When we both know what could have been
I know that some day I'm gonna have my way

It's a lonely mixed up tragedy
That rips apart my life long dream
And a lonely mixed up memory
That keeps me down when I just wanna be free

Not what I wanted
Not what I need
(Harmony for you and me
That's the way we want it to be)