New Medication

All the way off in the distance
A part of me still wanted to resist this
For no reason talking bout the same things at the same time
Wanted to express how the undesired shine

It seems like I can’t catch a break and every day the same mistakes
For no one else, the pressure builds and builds, til we can’t even breathe

Til we can’t even breath, in water where we’re meant to sleep
The structure that we couldn’t see, like a chain around your mind
It put me into retreat

Break down, another pill another compound
Another chain around your neck now
All the way up just to forget how

Slow, I’m on new medication
I don’t think I’ll see you soon
And so, I don’t need my medication to understand
How to make things disappear

A long walk through the snow now
All the way down to the hospital
The waters coming in slowly
The pills the try to control me

Last summer in the psych ward I couldn’t get out
Had me sitting in a gown with my foot in my mouth
I lied to the doctors i lied to my mom
So i could go home and just

Break down, another pill another compound
Another chain around your neck now
All the way up just to forget how