Burn The Ashes

i try to help myself
i want to help myself
i can't help myself
cut away the sickness
scrape away the blackened parts
as i burn myself to ashes
then burn the ashes


silver cataract contemptible
the tip of the hook so close to my skin
once inside it starts to burn
it starts to bleed
my thoughts turn sour again
time reveals that i never change
i want to help myself but i keep falling backwards
surrender is the only answer