I've Got a Hot Date With a Cold Shower

At this the end, i'll say goodbye,
Its gone to long, why did i even try to believe this lie?
I told myself, did i really think that it would go well
When i left the ground and took this leap?
That wasn't faith, that wasn't wise, and in so doing wasn't safe.
Those crystal eyes were so convincing when you promised you'd always satisfy me.
At the end of each day, night holds the promise of her face.
I see her in my dreams, i know that sleep wont make me free. (of her)
This is a nightmare that i know i will soon wake up from,
Your siren is so beguiling,
You sing your pitch so enticing.
I think to myself, why am i even trying to refuse when she's so inviting?
Why go without and feel like i'm dying, i don't care if you say that its defiling.
This is all i want! (at the moment)
This is my need. (you really need this)
Why would i wait? (i have something better)
Why would i wait? (for you)
This is my life day after day and its by his grace i'll overcome.
I force myself into apathy, dive headfirst for serenity.
From the misery of her i leave in hopes of finding peace.
I'm leaving now in the day light, i've left behind the miseries of night.
At this the end, i'll say goodbye.
Its gone to long why did i even try, to believe a lie
I told myself? did i really think that it would go well
When i left the ground?