What I Call Life

You want me as your life line,
But I'm so far away,
Causing a mess, live in excess, reality's at bay.

Our worlds have been turned upside down,
So I try to numb the pain,
Soon I'd feel my liver start to quiver when it hears Captain Morgan's name.

Drowning in denial,
Every single night,
I'm hanging by my fingernails to What I Call a Life.

Shove all of my problems,
To the confines of my mind,
As the walls are crashing inwards,
On my train wreck of a life.

I'm well over my limit,
But the mayor has upped my nerve,
Without hesitation, his legislation has put me in the steel reserve.

Vodka and vicodin, could be my new best friends,
You aren't well, but what the hell, all suffering has an end. (Right?)

Whirlwind of confusion,
My mind's a civil war,
I'm grabbing what needs not picked up off of a truck stop whore.

I'm not hurting anybody, I'm just trying to have some fun,
I'd be in bed by 8pm, and get back home by one.

Drowning in denial,
Every single night,
I'm hanging by my fingernails to What I Call a Life.

Shove all of my problems,
To the confines of my mind,
As the walls are crashing inwards,
On my train wreck of a life.

Traumatic stress consumes your life,
When I thought it wouldn't linger,
As I'm screaming, drunk, and breaking shit next to a man with dragon fingers.

BAC outweighs my GPA,
What does this have in store?
Three out of five times, before it's night time,
You'd find me on the floor.

In retrospect, I hate myself,
And past situations,
Like when you told me that you love me and then I fucked that aryan.

But I was only 18,
Not prepared with what to do,
I'm sorry for how i continued and abandoned you.

Drowning in denial,
Every single night,
I'm hanging by my fingernails to What I Call a Life.

Shove all of my problems,
To the confines of my mind,
As the walls are crashing inwards,
On my train wreck of a life.

Drowning in denial,
Every single night,
I'm hanging by my fingernails to What I Call a Life.

Shove all of my problems,
To the confines of my mind,
As the walls are crashing inwards,
On my train wreck of a life.