Waves

Can’t express how I'm feeling ‘cause I don’t even know
I'm surrounded by people, never felt so alone
I know my heart is pumping but I can’t feel it now
My chest hurts yet I turn all help down

I'm a puppet trained to live, my tears are toxic and
I don’t know how to forgive myself
I'm tired, I'm sick
Everyone around me looks blurry
And I can’t seem to find your helping hands right in front of me

Life is coming in waves and I can't turn away
Crushing in on me, I'm buried underneath
Life is coming in waves, don't wanna turn away
Crushing in on me but I don't wanna leave

I don't know what to say or how to find the right words
There are times when I think it might stop to hurt
But then I take a breath, swallow a hand full of dirt
I spit it out, exhale until it covers my shirt

I'm a puppet trained to live, my tears are toxic and
I don’t know how to forgive myself
I'm tired, I'm sick
Everyone around me looks blurry
And I can’t seem to find your helping hands right in front of me

Life is coming in waves and I can't turn away
Crushing in on me, I'm buried underneath
Life is coming in waves, don't wanna turn away
Crushing in on me but I don't wanna leave

I'm wandering around not knowing what's to find
Living like there’s no stars to be aligned
Thinking no one’s here to help me through
Facing a wall keeping me from you