i don't deserve you

I see the way you look at me
Like I'm the only one you see
But if you knew what's in my head
You'd be running far instead
I've made mistakes I can't erase
I've hurt myself, I've lost my place
And still you hold me like I'm gold
Even when my heart feels cold

Every time you say my name
It feels like sunlight on my shame
But deep inside I'm terrified
That one day you'll see the darker side

I don't deserve you
Not your touch, not your light
Not the way you make the dark turn bright
I don't deserve you
But I'm scared to let go
'Cause you're the only love I've ever known
I don't deserve you
But I need you so

I don't deserve you (you know damn well)
But you want me anyway (and that makes me want to live more)
I'm not good enough (you know damn well)
But you're the one I need (I need you to breathe)
And when I run away
You run away (you run away too)
And you come after me
That's what you do
And I don't deserve you (I don't deserve you, I don't deserve you)

You call me better than I am
You see the good, you understand
But I'm afraid it's all pretend
That I'll mess it up again
I've burned the bridges in my past
I've made the good things never last
And yet you're here, you still believe
In someone I can't even see

Every time you hold me close
It feels like heaven, feels like home
But in my mind I'm counting down
To the day you finally find out

I don't deserve you
Not your touch, not your light
Not the way you make the dark turn bright
I don't deserve you
But I'm scared to let go
'Cause you're the only love I've ever known
I don't deserve you
But I need you so

I don't deserve you (you know damn well)
But you want me anyway (and that makes me want to live more)
I'm not good enough (you know damn well)
But you're the one I need (I need you to breathe)
And when I run away
You run away (you run away too)
And you come after me
That's what you do
And I don't deserve you (I don't deserve you, I don't deserve you)

If loving me starts breaking you
Promise you'll do what you have to do
Even if it means I'm left alone
At least you'll be safe, at least you'll be whole

I don't deserve you
Not your heart, not your trust
Not the way you always choose us
I don't deserve you
But I can't let you go
'Cause you're the only love I've ever known
I don't deserve you
But I need you so

I don't deserve you (you know damn well)
But you want me anyway (and that makes me want to live more)
I'm not good enough (you know damn well)
But you're the one I need (I need you to breathe)
And when I run away
You run away (you run away too)
And you come after me
That's what you do
And I don't deserve you (I don't deserve you, I don't deserve you)