i tried

I told myself I'm fine
Even when I couldn't breathe at night
I smiled for the world to see
While I was breaking quietly
I kept pretending I was strong
Said it's nothing when it felt so wrong
And every mirror showed a lie
But I just kept my head held high

I thought if I ignored the pain
It would fade like a passing rain
But it stayed, it grew inside
And I'm so tired of trying to hide

I tried to be okay
I tried to push it all away
But the shadows follow wherever I go
And the cracks keep starting to show
I tried to make them believe
I tried, but I'm still not free
And I don't know how to say
That I'm not okay

I filled my days with empty noise
So I wouldn't hear my own voice
Told my friends I just need space
When I was lost in a darker place
I laughed at jokes I didn't feel
Convinced myself it wasn't real
But when the night would close in tight
The silence screamed louder than my fight

I thought if I could hide my tears
They'd forget about my fears
But they stayed, they carved their name
In the corners of my brain

I tried to be okay
I tried to push it all away
But the shadows follow wherever I go
And the cracks keep starting to show
I tried to make them believe
I tried, but I'm still not free
And I don't know how to say
That I'm not okay

Maybe one day I'll stop pretending
Maybe one day the pain will be ending
But right now I'm stuck in this fight
Saying I'm fine when it's a lie

I tried to be okay
I tried to push it all away
But the shadows follow wherever I go
And the cracks keep starting to show
I tried to make them believe
I tried, but I'm still not free
And I don't know how to say
That I'm not okay

I tried to be okay (to be okay)
I tried to push it all away
But the shadows follow wherever I go
And the cracks keep starting to show
I tried, but I'm breaking inside
And I can't keep living this lie
So here's the truth I can't deny
I tried