Fell Too Far

If I'ma fall apart
That's my part right
And I don't need anymore love
That's a lost fight
She gon' turn and look at me
What's the cost like
Told her baby break my heart
Its a dark night

Remember when we'd talk on the phone
We would geek
Now everytime I call
Your so low you can't speak
I miss the better days
Sharing stories there all blurred out
Everything's a haze
Talking to you really hurts now
Self control self care
I keep fighting for it
Takes so long
On hold but I swear
I'ma make up for it
All these wrongs
Wish I could run it back turning the times
Fix all the things that have broke in my mind
Keep to myself and stay closed all my life
Think that's way better than opening eyes
Anxiety on full throttle
All I need is this bottle
Drink to much I feel awful
Nothing can help in this novel
Colossal

If I'ma fall apart
That's my part right
And I don't need anymore love
That's a lost fight
She gon' turn and look at me
What's the cost like
Told her baby break my heart
Its a dark night

Don't wake me up just let me sleep
I get your calls just leave me be
If I'ma fall just cut me deep
I've had enough my arms feel weak
Now its a problem for both of us
Hearts been longing for better stuff
Miss just holding you waking up
Now I'm wanting to break this love
Souls a part of the pain and cuts
All these scars that you gave me bust
Where to start is the hardest part
Took a shot in the fucking dark
Need some new pavement
Gimmie some medication
Flooded with all your statements
Mind is way to close to breaking
Fetal position I'm shaking
What the fuck was I taking
What the fuck was I taking

If I'ma fall apart
That's my part right
And I don't need anymore love
That's a lost fight
She gon' turn and look at me
What's the cost like
Told her baby break my heart
Its a dark night