Drama King

You said you wanted me to be happy
You said you would love me no matter who I love
But sometimes I feel like I'm destroying your happiness
It seems that everything I do takes me further from you
I didn't mean to hurt you
I just wish I could be myself
But how can I love myself, if you don't love me anymore?
It's not fair that I have to choose between you and me
He calls me the drama king
But I just wanted them to understand what I'm feeling

Try to imagine
What it would be if your mother stopped loving you
It would be too hard
But remember they say it's only drama
Try to imagine
What it would be if your brothers turned their faces to you
It would be too painful
But remember they say it's only drama
Why is not my pain important like anyone else's?
Why do I only have my feelings called worthless?
I was called a special
They called me special
I think I wasn't special
Because now I'm just the king of drama
Dra-dra-drama king
Dra-dra-drama king
Dra-dra-drama king
I'm worthless

I heard my own brother call me a fag
He said that he didn't want me near him
He said I had to get a girlfriend
If I wanted to walk with him
I had to fit into the box he chose
He made me feel like crap
I just wanted to be myself
But I could not
He made me choose between him and myself
And I chose him
Then I get a girlfriend
An incredibly smart girl
But she didn't seem to love me either
She just wanted to run away from her parents
And I was the perfect choice
She was with me
But she didn't love me
And I think I did not love her either
I think I loved the fact that I could be with my brother again
But I suffered from within
And she also suffered
It became too painful
All because of the lack of love

Try to imagine
What it would be if your mother stopped loving you
It would be too hard
But remember they say it's only drama
Try to imagine
What it would be if your brothers turned their faces to you
It would be too painful
But remember they say it's only drama
Why is not my pain important like anyone else's?
Why do I only have my feelings called worthless?
I was called a special
They called me special
I think I wasn't special
Because now I'm just the king of drama
Dra-dra-drama king
Dra-dra-drama king
Dra-dra-drama king
I'm worthless

I can't hardly be in the same place as they
I cannot look at them without feeling pain in the heart
I cannot smile at them
I can only imagine that the fact that I was a LGBT person
Turned me into a monster
I became disgusted with myself
Not because I was
But because they did not want me anymore
I stopped fitting
I did not want to fit anymore
I was tired of trying
I was already tired of trying
To believe that things would improve
So I took blades and I got hurt
I cut my wrists to try to forget the pain in the soul
But the pain only increased
I wanted to die
I wanted to give up
I believed that if I went away
If I left forever
They would be happy again
And I would cease to be a weight

Try to imagine
What it would be if your mother stopped loving you
It would be too hard
But remember they say it's only drama
Try to imagine
What it would be if your brothers turned their faces to you
It would be too painful
But remember they say it's only drama
Why is not my pain important like anyone else's?
Why do I only have my feelings called worthless?
I was called a special
They called me special
I think I wasn't special
Because now I'm just the king of drama
Dra-dra-drama king
Dra-dra-drama king
Dra-dra-drama king
I'm worthless

I'm afraid
I'm afraid I will not be able to
I got so close and now depending on other people to help me
But I can hardly find them
I'm broken
I'm broken inside and I feel like there's no one today
Trying to help me to put my pieces together
Maybe I'm a single piece of a puzzle that no longer exists
A lonely solitude that has only the moon as a companion
I don't have value for many people
But I am grateful for those people
Who take care of a smile on my face
God is good all the time
And in every single time God is good