surviving on defiance

When I run, you won't find me tracing my steps
From what I wanted, oh
The horrors you made so real
Burned in a mind as promised

If I'm living now, I'm half alive
I'm surviving on defiance
I'm fighting in the wake
I'm fettered, so maybe
Flowers will bloom for me
And I can tell the mirror in your face
She's screaming for blood and violence
But it's my time to pretend

As it was, I was loose
Losing myself to a fear
As a bitter constant, oh
I refuse to know you from here
I'm a temper object

If you're still looking bright
I'm surviving on defiance
I'm fighting in the wake
I'm fettered, so maybe
Flowers will bloom for me
And I can tell the mirror in your face
She's screaming for blood and violence
But it's my time to pretend