The Inevitable Circle of Acceptance

One day you wake up and notice that the sky is dark
Another cloudy day
And your head is like the sky
Cloudy and dark

With all those bad thoughts that you've been trying to avoid for a long time
But today, the weight of existence falls into you just like
The rain will fall outside
And you are sitting in bed

And then you start to review every bad decision that you ever made
All the friends you lost, and all the mistakes that you insist on making
And it is funny to you how sunny days for a long time make you
Make you really forget about all this guilty that you doomed to feel

Today's commitment to guilty is greater than any commitment you ever had in your life
So you get out of bed
And you persist in the idea that you're not having a bad day, you are just sleepy
Will all your mistakes really make you change anything? No

You actually don't believe in that
So you go to the bathroom and you wash your face
To see if this useless guilty of your conscience goes away with the water
So you notice that you don't feel like yourself

You look at your hands and doesn't feel like your hands
Panic starts to overwhelm you
But you're used to that you spend a long time in hiding
All your distress you swallow it and you go about your day as usual

Following their routine keeps you grounded
The weight of the guilty almost disappears, just like any other day
But you don't feel like yourself
The same pain that once made you want to tear your own body apart

The unthought of it, has been replaced
And I'm feeling of acceptance
And it is no better than before
Because you feel really happy

You lay down after a long day
Close your eyes
And you dodge bad thoughts and anxiety
Congratulations, you last one more day

And then you wake up
And notice the sky is dark
Another cloudy day