Diving Into Lies

Lying on the broken glass
My blood is no longer part of me
The fountain pen has run out of ink
And my decency went with it

My black and gray tears
Seeing myself as a stranger
Pretending that the cuts don't cause me pain
And I believe that monsters are under my bed

It was necessary, I had to suffer, I had to believe in make-believe
I had to dive into lies, I had to drown
My tears ricochet and return to my face
Lights blind the eyes, close a cycle
I had to dive into lies, I had to drown
What if I had bad character, what if I lied to everyone
Would that make me a traitor? So you're already off track
A long time ago, a long time ago, many years ago

Can I go to the bottom of the can?
It's dark there, it echoes there, I would be alone there
But not completely, it would be hugging my soul
And that would be the end, it would be rock bottom

Constant pain, slow death, rolling eyes
Breaking walls of bones, breaking trust
Broken typewriter, wind that lifts your hair

It was necessary, I had to suffer, I had to believe in make-believe
I had to dive into lies, I had to drown
My tears ricochet and return to my face
Lights blind the eyes, close a cycle
I had to dive into lies, I had to drown
What if I had bad character, what if I lied to everyone
Would that make me a traitor? So you're already off track
A long time ago, a long time ago, many years ago

Diving into lies, diving into unreal facts
Diving into lies, diving into unreal facts
Diving into lies, diving into unreal facts
Diving into lies, diving into unreal facts
Diving into lies, diving into unreal facts
Diving into lies, diving into unreal facts
Diving into lies, diving into unreal facts

It was necessary, I had to suffer, I had to believe in make-believe
I had to dive into lies, I had to drown
My tears ricochet and return to my face
Lights blind the eyes, close a cycle
I had to dive into lies, I had to drown
What if I had bad character, what if I lied to everyone
Would that make me a traitor? So you're already off track
A long time ago, a long time ago, many years ago