Ruins

Suffering and destroying myself
They didn't even call on my birthday
I should forget this pain (you will never forget)
I am pathologically broken, I am a being in ruins
Ruins, ruins, a being in ruins, ruins
They just gave birth to me, I say internally
'Cause I can't smile and see a birthday cake
The wounds are my ruin, my ruin

You're alone child, you're lost
In this world hungry for people with fears and weaknesses
From my first cry until I left home
They always said I was the black sheep
My cries meant nothing
My brother almost set my red hair on fire

All the places I was once happy
Turned to ashes, turned into pieces of history
To be pathologically burned, to be broken from new
It's an addiction you have for life

Suffering and destroying myself
They didn't even call on my birthday
I should forget this pain (you will never forget)
I am pathologically broken, I am a being in ruins
Ruins, ruins, a being in ruins, ruins
They just gave birth to me, I say internally
'Cause I can't smile and see a birthday cake
The wounds are my ruin, my ruin

All my boyfriends saw how hurt I was
Why didn't they go to the hospital or call?
I lied when I said I loved my brother
I lied when I said my life was amazing
A mintomaniac, a destroyed being
Bring the dagger to this beautiful sinner

All the places I've been happy
They became memories rotting in my mind
Give empathy and respect someone who is your blood
It should be the minimum, but they didn't even give me that

Suffering and destroying myself
They didn't even call on my birthday
I should forget this pain (you will never forget)
I am pathologically broken, I am a being in ruins
Ruins, ruins, a being in ruins, ruins
They just gave birth to me, I say internally
'Cause I can't smile and see a birthday cake
The wounds are my ruin, my ruin

How many school parties haven't you been to?
How many photos did you burn?
How many memories have you broken?
I never got an: I love you, son
I've never been loved
And don't cover me with kindness
How many times have you killed me?
How many times have I become ruins, and you pretended not to see?

Suffering and destroying myself
They didn't even call on my birthday
I should forget this pain (you will never forget)
I am pathologically broken, I am a being in ruins
Ruins, ruins, a being in ruins, ruins
They just gave birth to me, I say internally
'Cause I can't smile and see a birthday cake
The wounds are my ruin, my ruin

I will forgive all the ways you hurt me
But I will never forget how I became a being of a thousand pieces
I will forgive all things
But I will never forget them