Ship Was Sinking

It was the beginning of February
I was almost recovered
But when the news came out
My mind automatically
Goes back to his hands on my waist
And my world falls apart again

Drinking wine became torturous
It wouldn't matter when I'm my own enemy
But let's face it, wine gave me life
Now it seems that everything I believed in has sunk

But they often say that I hurt him
But damn it, the ship was sinking
He jumped first, I just didn't die
Like some people wanted me to

Call me horrible, but don't say I fired the first shot
There are two wounds in this relationship
Mine is the deepest

Now, when a door slams shut
I only remember his outbursts
He used to say I shouldn't worry
But when I was dying alone
He came to ask for my help

Forever and ever, I'll live with marks
Maybe they won't feel what I felt
But there are ways to kill someone
One of them is not loving them enough

But they often say I hurt him
But damn it, the ship was sinking
He jumped first, I just didn't die
Like some people wanted me to do

Call me horrible, but don't say I fired the first shot
There are two wounds in this relationship
Mine is the deepest

The brightness at the beginning turned to darkness at the end
Central Park was my refuge
But when I remember that's where I first saw you
I die and he lives longer

But they often say I hurt him
But damn it, the ship was sinking
He jumped first, I just didn't die
Like some people wanted me to do

Call me horrible, but don't say I fired the first shot
There are two wounds in this relationship
Mine is the deepest