Still Fight... I Still Want To The Best

I want to live forever
I don't want to see them shed a single tear
I want to feel all this pain
So they come out unharmed

Be sweet, be beautiful, be the best, the best
Mommy, I will be, even in the pain
And even if you didn't accept me

Be strong, be inherent, be the best, the best
Believe me, daddy, I was, but even so
I'm still here, in the void
Without your hands to pull me

I still fight so this doesn't consume me
I still cry in the dark
I still remember the bullying
I still haven't found the best in me
I'm still failing
I'm still fighting
I still fight so it's good for you
I still fight, I still fight, for this to go

Yes, I have an empty heart
I'm a promise that was not fulfilled
The darkness is my friend
And look, it was you who introduced us

A union of clouds
That I haven't seen since I became the worst
For that I was the chosen one?
Why was my spoiled brother always the best?

I still fight so that this doesn't consume me
I still cry in the dark
I still remember the bullying
I still haven't found the best in me
I'm still failing
I'm still fighting
I still fight so that it's good for you
I still fight, I still fight, for this to go

Don't ask me for forgiveness
I'm tired of being a stopgap
I'm tired of you fucking with my head
My songs about parental abandonment
Seem to have an effect
Because the more I sing, the more alone I am

I still fight, I still fight
I still want to be the best
I still want to feel happiness
I still want to not feel
I'm still fighting
I still want to shine like the stars
I still want to the best