The Deepest Pain

I was a bird flying aimlessly
I want to jump on the first possible elixir
I didn't want to fly against the wind
I was tired, I was exhausted
They say I'm glad you left me
But I've never felt so much pain, so much pain Sam

Was I really the best?
Did Amber have ulterior motives?
You are a pathological naive
It was déjà vu, an endless cycle
Every time I return to your bloodstained hands
Our matching pendants
It's all over, it's all over, it's all over

The deepest pain was seeing your eyes asking for help
Write on the paper, write your fears
It was on the lotus bed, it was crying for you
This is the deepest pain
Red jackets passing through the door
Running through orange leaves
It was the end of autumn, and the end, and the end
And in the end there was only me left, and only me left

I was a phoenix that has not yet risen
I could give you the apple that the Evil Queen gave Snow White
I cried for you, but what was the point?
You took them and pretended you were the victim
But didn't you catch Amber in the hallway?
Sources say Jake cried
Meet me at the miracle river
I'll be there with the dagger

Melee, death in death
You could have been my garden of Babylon
I wanted to scream when I saw Amber touching his shoulder
Could you imagine that blonde hair touching yours?
I turned to ashes, I turned to pueria
Become a ghost

The deepest pain was seeing your eyes asking for help
Write on the paper, write your fears
It was on the lotus bed, it was crying for you
This is the deepest pain
Red jackets passing through the door
Running through orange leaves
It was the end of autumn, and the end, and the end
And in the end there was only me left, and only me left

Writing words in our footnote
I wore your favorite cardigan
Jake told me he wanted to die
I felt the same so I did that
I walked on the cobblestones
When I tripped I cried in front of your house
I read the letter you wrote
And I'm the girl I always was
I never hurt you, I just broke myself, I just broke myself

The deepest pain was seeing your eyes asking for help
Write on the paper, write your fears
It was on the lotus bed, it was crying for you
This is the deepest pain
Red jackets passing through the door
Running through orange leaves
It was the end of autumn, and the end, and the end
And in the end there was only me left, and only me left