You Are My Best Gift

When he asked me if I had ever been hurt
I couldn't answer
Because remembering is the worst pain
And I remembered every wound that had ever penetrated my skin

His hands went to the worst place they could have gone
Tears fell to the floor
He held me when I fell
Desolate, hot, cold, dead
The memory is the worst pain

And my mind holds every word
The palace I built in my head
Crumbled with every broken heart
And there was nothing I could do

I flew, fell and broke all my bones
The rain wet my words
What could I do
Everything screams you
My friends say you are my best gift
But surprises are painful and gifts even more so
And I don't think you'd hurt me
Maybe it's a big mistake to think that
Because others have hurt me
When I gave myself away

Tell me I'm not hurt
That I don't hold grudges, that I'm not sinning
Why would I burn myself at the first moment
I just want someone who really loves me
And who won't hurt me or create a wound

It could be a legend of the lovers
Could be a teary-eye for my dreams
You seem to know every pain I've ever had
Can you be my bandage?

I flew, fell and broke all my bones
The rain has wet my words
What could I do?
Everything screams you
My friends say you are my best gift
But surprises are painful and gifts even more so
And I don't think you'd hurt me
Maybe it's a big mistake to think that
Because others have hurt me
When I gave myself away

And if I love you
Do you promise to love me even if I turn into a statue?
The worst person in the world, or if I hurt you deeply
And if the world collapses and everything is on fire
You'll still hold my waist and wipe away my tears
I don't care what they say
Because I'm too old to care about bullshit
Just don't break me

I flew and fell and broke all my bones
The rain has wet my words
What could I do
Everything screams you
My friends say you are my best gift
But surprises are painful and gifts even more so
And I don't think you'd hurt me
Maybe it's a big mistake to think that
Because others have hurt me
When I gave myself away

Look at me
And say: I love you