It Was Me

I've crossed half the world, still never got away
Paris looked different, but my ghosts still stayed
I keep dressing up the same old wound
Calling it a rooftop view

I took the long way just to feel brand new
Changed my number, changed my point of view
But every road I thought would lead me home
Just showed me I was still alone

I keep drinking just to feel it less
Keep smiling like I'm not a mess
But it doesn't matter where I land
I bring the storm with who I am

First it was London, then it was everywhere
Every heartbreak left a mark somewhere
Flying down to Istanbul
Thinking distance could make me new
Every December, I pray to forget
Every January, I start again
I keep changing cities
But the damage follows every step
'Cause the mistake was never you
It was me, it was me, it was me

Last summer I went to Italy
Chasing a life that wasn't me
Learned new names, drank new wine
Stayed out late till morning light

I kissed somebody by the sea
Told myself that's all I need
But when the Sun came up again
I was right back where I'd always been

Another postcard, another view
Another stranger I almost knew
I keep finding somewhere beautiful
And somehow making it miserable

I keep drinking just to feel it less
Keep smiling like I'm not a mess
But it doesn't matter where I land
I bring the storm with who I am

First it was London, then it was everywhere
Every heartbreak left a mark somewhere
Flying down to Istanbul
Thinking distance could make me new
Every December, I pray to forget
Every January, I start again
I keep changing cities
But the damage follows every step
'Cause the mistake was never you
It was me, it was me, it was me

First it was London, then it was everywhere
Paris, Rome, Istanbul, I left myself there
Every road, every flight, every hotel room
I kept running from the same old truth

Every December, I pray to forget
Every January, I start again
I could cross every ocean
I could chase every sunset
But wherever I go
I'm taking me with me

First it was London, then it was everywhere
And the mistake was never you
It was me, it was me, it was me