The Challenge Of Not Loving You

I swore we'd never make it past the start
With your fingerprints burned on my heart
I played the fool, you played the saint
Every word you threw was wet with paint
It colored me in, but it bled me out

Oh, I've been laughing through the breakdown
Oh, turned my pain into a punchline
But every road I ran was a circle
And I kept on running blind

I'm only writing just to tell you
That I let go too
Even if it looks like I still bleed
Like the weight of you is crushing me
But I had to face the hardest truth
That the challenge was not loving you

The clock moved fast, the nights moved slow
But somewhere in the wreck I found my soul
I stitched myself with quiet hands
Like monks who never make demands
And I swear, there's no war left inside me now

Oh, I've been laughing through the breakdown
Oh, turned my pain into a punchline
But every road I ran was a circle
And I kept on running blind

I'm only writing just to tell you
That I let go too
Even if it looks like I still bleed
Like the weight of you is crushing me
But I had to face the hardest truth
That the challenge was not loving you

(Yeah) you were my unfinished story
(Yeah) too late for sorry
You shattered me in a thousand ways
But nothing you said could be saved
And I had to learn to breathe again without you

I'm only writing just to tell you
That I let go too
Even if the ghosts still chase me down
I'm not living in your shadow now
I had to face the hardest truth
That the challenge was not loving you

The challenge was not loving you
The challenge was not loving you