Mishap

Desperately wondering, am I not all there?
When I take a fall just to knock me off my feet again
Cause lately, I'm so angry and I hide behind the flask
I could've sworn I'd be in a better place in my life by now

I made a pact, if I could tie up these loose ends
I'd forgive and let go of my past (but I can't)
At first glance, you'd see I've been damaged like the rest
Whether to be so calm, or carry on
It wont help me forget this brevity
My worthless wants and needs
I'm so miserable, self-involved
And I don't know how to escape the in-between

I complicate everything
Too much agony that I bring
I lost sight of me, I'm still incomplete
I know they all agree

This is beyond my control
I've got a long way, a long way to go
So I'll say, so long cause I never belonged
I thought I was above it all, this is my last call
I don't think I'm gonna make it
And I'm not the first to admit
I've got too much I hold in, am I gonna break or bend?